A new Red Rose in the garden

Saturday, December 31, 2005
Guess what’s my precious gift that I’ve got for the new year?

A very beautiful red rose in the garden.

Nothing could be compared to it’s beauty and tenderness. That new rose in the garden said it all. It reflected all the meanings of a new year. A new start, a start full of happiness and joy.

Wish you all a Happy New Year, fill with roses to bring you happiness and joy.
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 4:26 PM, | 6 comments

It’s snowing!!

Thursday, December 29, 2005
Didn’t I say that I’m still a little kid. Definitely I am. It’s amazing what little things can do with changing my mood. I like playing around with stuff and see them working. No matter how small it is.

If you are reading that on my blog, I can presume that you know what am I talking about. Can you see it snowing here? That’s the little thing I was playing with, and it made me happy :)))

I got to thank Blue for I managed to get that snow through cheating from her blog, with a little of inspecting to get that new snow on my blog.

This winter I very much needed to visit a place where it is snowing. But that’s not gonna happen :( I was ok by going to a place where it will reach under zero, with no snow, but still this isn’t gonna happen either :(

So, no problem, I brought snow here to my little place ;)
There is always a way.. LOL..

It’s strange how I manage to fool myself.. a kid whom I can turn her crying into a smile with a new toy!!
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 11:29 PM, | 5 comments

End of the week.. End of the month.. End of the year!

Wednesday, December 28, 2005
My week was going in a steady way. Nothing major was happening, the usual routine at work and at home. I was satisfied, but felt that I have no time to do things I like, or wan to do. Each day, I come home planning to write something, but time just flies, and I find myself falling asleep. I say to myself, I’ll sleep early, and wake up early and go to work before the working hours, and write what I want. Actually, this never happens, I barely go on time, if not late.

Today, was extremely different from the rest of the week. All are rushing around, all are having a work pressure, since it’s end of the week, end of the month, and end of the year. Everything is coming to an end, and all are trying to close everything to have a brand new start by starting the year 2006.

Through all that, the power went off. No lights, no computers.. nothing at all. We went out, me and my team to have lunch out, and come back, since it seemed that the power will be off for long time.

After we came back, I had something that I should have submitted about an hour and a half ago when the power went off, and it was urgent. Tried my best, but I had something that I need one of my colleagues to do for me, for I have no access to that particular thing. He seemed to be upset because we went out without him, so he kept on delaying things as if he wanted me to beg him or something. He really irritated me, he acted as a little kid. Seriously, I never thought that reaction would come out from a grown up person.

Anyways, finally he gave me what I want, after begging and asking for it! Did the thing I had to do, and submitted it.

The rest of the day remained with that same pace. Everyone is in a hurry, all need their stuff to get done.

I just hope tomorrow will not be the same hopefully.. I can no longer stand pressure!
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 9:55 PM, | 2 comments

Vacations season

Friday, December 23, 2005
So, the year is coming to an end.. a new year is starting, and vacation is coming my way. I remember for many years ago the new year meant having exams, and the only thing that marked my new year’s evening was the new year’s eve show on Radio Cairo. I was fine with that, I really enjoyed these years, and was happy starting my new year listening to my favorite announcers and friends on radio.

This year, things are different, no more exams, and I’m having 1st of Jan. vacation. A long weekend tempting me to travel somewhere.

Couple of days ago, the official vacations for the year 2006 were announced at work. A good start by giving us that 1st of Jan vacation, to be followed by another week vacation from 7th to 14th of Jan.

Went home to plan with my family how will we spend these vacations, but they got me disappointed :( my brother will be having an exam on 1st of Jan, and on the 15th! This means nothing but staying at home!

There is still another option, we get divided, two travel, and two stay at home. But I was looking forward for a family vacation where the four of us would enjoy. But seems that will never happen. We can’t find the timing, nor the place.

As for the timing, my vacations doesn’t go with my brother’s. I’m having a vacation he is having exams. He is having the mid year vacation, I’ll be having work!

Finally, we managed of reaching a compromise by making it in my brother’s mid year vacation, and I’ll take two days off work.

Comes the other problem, WHERE?!!
It’s getting hard to find a place the four of us will enjoy. The type of place me and my brother want, doesn’t match that of my father and mother.

Well, that’s nothing new for us, my dad always said that we are 4 with 6 opinions.. LOL.

Back again to that week vacation I’ll be loosing :( I wish to travel, and there is a trip that’s tempting me, but the think of me as a selfish for I’ll be traveling and my brother will be having exams. Moreover, I myself want to spend the 3eed with my family.. umm, don’t know what will I do.
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 3:39 PM, | 7 comments

New LCD at work :D

Thursday, December 22, 2005
Sometime ago we were promised to have new LCD screens at work. Yup, the screens arrived today. I really like my new screen, I guess it might be the reason for me spending more time at work :D

Lately I hardly was able to sit in front of my home computer screen. It is unfocused which was the reason for the headache that accompanied me for a while.

Went home today, to find my dad replaced my screen with a very old screen that we had many years ago, and he took the other screen to get fixed! Yeah it’s better from that focus point of view, but no comparison between it and the new once I just had at work!

The guy who is going to fix my screen said that it might not get fixed. This leaves me with three options, stay with that screen I’m using now (a refused option), buy a new LCD at home (will appreciate it if dad would be generous and do that), the final option is to buy a new laptop instead of that one my dad claimed he bought it for me, but it’s him who is using it.

Have been having that option going in my mind for sometime, because my PC is making such weird stuff these days, and I’m not in the mood to see what’s wrong with it, will hand it over to my brother, and he checks what’s wrong. Seems it’s time to get things into action. This means I should start saving money :( something that I’ve never succeeded in. I’m such a spendthrift person.

Let me wait and see how things will go with my old screen.. I really loved it.
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 11:38 PM, | 2 comments

Contradictions of life!

Monday, December 19, 2005
On the same day I've fallen in love with his smile..

It was the same day I've seen pain on her face, on her body, in her voice. Can't imagine that a human can do that to a human being!!
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 9:54 PM, | 4 comments

Que Sera Sera..

Friday, December 16, 2005





When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me

Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be

When I grew up and fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said

Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be

Now I have children of my own
They asked their mother what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly

Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be
Que sera, sera ...
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 1:20 PM, | 4 comments

Physical versus Psychological pain

Thursday, December 15, 2005
Was having a stomachache couple of days ago, which brought that thought to my mind. Which is tougher the physical or the psychological pain?!!

Which can be more endurable?!
Having a headache, stomachache, toothache, etc.. or feel a pain in the heart.. feel broken inside.. feel your heart is aching..

Just a thought!
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 10:02 PM, | 2 comments

Launching the Visual Studio 2005

Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Today I was attending the Microsoft solutions summit for launching the Visual Studio 2005, SQL Server 2005, and the BizTalk Server (New products for Software development released by Microsoft).

Actually I like attending these events, though I hate the marketing tone that's in the Microsoft people when they talk. First time to attend a launch for a product, but used to attend their developers conference for the past three years.

The past three years I used to attend as a student. I remember that whenever I had to fill the registration form, I hated it to write a student in the job title. I used to envy those people who have job titles, and used to think when am I gonna graduate and have a job title. Was always wishing to graduate, work, and attend as a developer or whatever my title is.

My wish came true.. I graduated, I worked, I attended, and I’m having a job title. But it didn’t feel like I thought it would. In fact, it felt better to attend as a student rather than after graduating. I was free.. attend whichever track I want, leave if I’m bored, keep jumping from this track to that one, do whatever I want. But this time, it was my boss who decided which track I’ll attend. I didn’t like that.. I didn’t like it to feel that I’m obliged to attend.

On the other hand, it still felt good to see my old college colleagues, students from my faculty, familiar faces that I see in all events.

Here comes the funny part! And when I talk about funny part in these events, this means it’s about food. Just a hint for the number of people, we were about 2500.

There was supposed a first coffee break. Well, from my previous experience with these events, probably you can’t catch anything, but still there is hope you could get yourself something! But this time it was different. I managed to get myself a cup of tea, and I only had a sight of the things that were there to eat. I even didn’t manage to know where were they.

Ok, no problem, there is lunch and probably it’s gonna be better than each year since it’s in a better place this year. But seems I was dreaming. Before ending the session, people started to leave one after the other.. guess why?! It was lunch time, and seems that they decided to have an early hunt for the food.

After the session was finished, we went out to find out that there isn’t even any traces for food. No problem, they will be refilling. I can’t be describing how did things go. That was really hilarious. People went hunting for food everywhere, for whatever they can get. Actually I was hungry, and I decided I should find a way to get anything to eat. After making my way for something, I found out it’s suttee vegetables with mushrooms, which I don’t like. No problem.. Mad my way out, and waited for something else. Things come and go, and I can’t even see it.

Got bored, and thought I’ll go buy myself something to eat, but then rethought about it, and felt that will take a long time. I waited, either to manage and have something, or just go sit and wait for the coming session.

Then smart people had there way. They caught the waiters the moment they come out with food. That means that even what they carried didn’t reach it’s planned destination! Honestly, that was the way I managed to have something to eat.

Now, it’s time for the dessert. LOL.. I just wanted to know where was it located. Got a piece of cake, and that was enough. Then, thought to myself, I’m thirsty. After a while, a found that waiters are coming out carrying juices. Umm.. and without thinking.. I found the waiter stopped by some people in front of me, and I had my orange juice.

Thank God, I wouldn’t have asked for more than that, and I went to sit waiting for the next session to start.

There is no problem to have the need to eat, and drink. That’s normal. But what’s abnormal is the way people handle that. If only we could have things more organized, this wouldn’t have happened. Each person takes only what will he eat and leave the rest for others. But this will never happen, open buffet will always remain a disaster.
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 9:42 PM, | 8 comments

A new cheerful Moon :)

Saturday, December 10, 2005

For those who have followed that blog for sometime, will definitely realize that I’m a pessimistic, gloomy person who most of the time see the negative side of things. But that is over. From now on, I’ll not be such a pessimistic person.. will always know that there is always a brighter side that I have to see.. will enjoy every moment and make the best out of it.

That’s the conclusion I came out with after attending a lecture on Thursday titled “da3wa ll tafa2ol” (An invitation for optimism) by dr. Ibrahim el Fiky.

When I rethink of the whole thing again.. I find that coincidence plays a big role in my life. I heard about that lecture some time ago,. Was enthusiastic about attending it, though I only read a book for him. Didn’t see any of his programs. I didn’t know if attending that lecture will be interesting or not, but still felt I need to check it. Was too lazy to go and book a ticket. Once was in a shopping mall, and found their booth there. Thought, that’s good and well, nothing to be lazy about, and bought the ticket.

On Thursday, was too lazy to go attend the lecture, and was going to give up my ticket to a friend. But still, urged myself to go and check, I won’t loose anything. If I found it boring, I’ll leave. Dressed up, and went.

I’ve got to say that these two or three hours I’ve attended might be the reason to a profound change in my perspective of life. He didn’t say something I don’t know. But I’m the kind of person who is affected by words easily, especially if deep inside I agree to what is said, but I only need someone to remind me.

Through his talking about pessimistic people, I felt that he is just describing me, and I wondered why am I doing that to myself. Nothing deserves.

I’ve attended many lectures before for human development, and each time I come out and say.. I’m gonna change.. I’ll apply what was said.. and it’s only couple of weeks maximum, and I’m back to who I used to be.

But this time.. there is a deep will inside me to change.. to be a new cheerful person, no matter what happens.

Just doing that for only one day.. made me feel like I’m another person. I felt that even my happiness and optimism is affecting people around me. My positive attitude is transmitting. Felt happy to find surrounding people happy..
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 2:19 PM, | 3 comments

Good Morning :)

Friday, December 09, 2005
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 12:41 PM, | 3 comments

Moon is not happy :(

Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Have been relatively going on a steady mood, more into an up mood rather than a down one. But still I have a feeling that there is something missing, but can’t put my hand on it, or can I?!

I’m trying to get along with my colleagues at work, it’s kinda going fine. But today I was really upset. Each one has something extra he throws it on me. Being the nice, non objecting lady I am, they make use of it. They forgot a very important fact, I have a limit, once it reached it’s threshold, I’m not responsible for the consequences!

To be honest, it’s not that big load of work, but what I don’t like is that everyone of them cares only about his stuff. They keep asking for it, which distracts me. I can’t concentrate on one thing and finish it to the end. I keep jumping from this to that. Each one saying that his things have the priority!

I have to finish all the unfinished business this week, which means tomorrow, which means going at least an hour early to work. Uhh.. another early day! Well, nothing was bugging me the previous couple of days except waking up early. It’s really a fight between me and myself everyday. No matter how early I sleep, I just can’t wake up early. I have a waking up early phobia.

Will go sleep now.. Wish I’ll get up early tomorrow with a good mood.
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 11:01 PM, | 4 comments

Judging a book by it’s cover?!

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Last night, after finishing my work, went to the culture wheel to reserve for a concert. After I was done, thought of having a walk to Diwan, where I wanted to buy a book, Zen And The Art of Motorcycle Maintenance.

Went in, and kept surfing the bookshelves for it. I know I could have just asked for it. But I just love going through books, reading a quote from here and a line from there. I feel like I want to buy the whole bookshop. And here lies the conflict, since my pocket can’t afford all the books I want.

When it’s time for me to prioritize one book to the other, I get lost. I don’t know on which basis should I prefer a book to the other. I face that problem whenever I get into a bookshop to buy a book.

I keep saying, I want to buy this, then I find another interesting one, and third one, etc.. and I end up either buying nothing, or buying a bad one.

It happened with me a lot that I liked a book from it’s cover and by skimming through it. But when I buy it, and start reading, I find it boring.

I don’t have a certain author whom I like his writings. Actually, I even don’t like it being attached to a certain author. I’d rather go through diverse collection of thoughts.

I just hate it when I don’t know how to judge a book :(

After I finished surfing the bookshop, not knowing what to buy, I went directly and asked for the book I wanted, but unfortunately, I didn't find it.

 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 10:11 PM, | 4 comments

Sometimes that's true!

Saturday, December 03, 2005
Reality
Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a
variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)
As a person, you think life is just plain
painful, horrible and everything else you don't
like. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean,
why are they so happy anyway? You are depressed
and perhaps utterly alone and live life rather
montone. You feel there is no reason to really
be here and feel helpless.


What wise quote fits you? [pics]
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posted by MoonLightShadow at 12:20 PM, | 3 comments

Recharged

Friday, December 02, 2005
How does it feel getting something you needed badly?!

Happy, relieved, excited.

But I had a different feeling. I felt recharged. As if I pressed button reset.

Went on talking and talking, not the typical me, but I felt happy about it. Talked and listened.

Thank you.
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 4:11 PM, | 1 comments

I'm Carnation

You Are a Carnation

You are down to earth and grounded.
You tend to be more traditional than trendy.
Your confidence gets you through anything.
People trust you and are very loyal to you.
 
posted by MoonLightShadow at 1:12 AM, | 0 comments