Moon is turning Two

Monday, February 26, 2007

Since the beginning of this month, I’ve been reminding myself each day that on the 26th of it I’ll be celebrating my blog’s second anniversary. I kept planning that I should have a celebrating post for that occasion, but I was too busy to think of anything to write..

I was planning to go quickly through the posts of last year.. remember major events that happened.. major changes.. simply, re-read myself..

Actually, I didn’t have enough time to do this.. but I skimmed quickly through some.. it felt very nice.. to have recorded all these events and feelings I’ve been going through..

Most important thing is, I want to thank whoever once read that blog, and supported me by his/her kind words.. I’m really thankful.

posted by MoonLightShadow at 10:58 PM, | 5 comments

That's me

Saturday, February 17, 2007
Young & Restless
Young at Heart

That's how I was described.. is it true?! I wonder.
posted by MoonLightShadow at 9:22 PM, | 5 comments


Friday, February 16, 2007
What is wisdom?!

When do we say that’s a wise person?!

Would experience mean wisdom?!

Should we get wiser as we grow older?!

posted by MoonLightShadow at 2:54 PM, | 3 comments

Happy Valentine

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Wish you all had a Happy Valentine :)
posted by MoonLightShadow at 10:02 PM, | 5 comments


Sunday, February 11, 2007
Tired of Complaining!
posted by MoonLightShadow at 11:17 PM, | 4 comments

Switched to new version of Blogger :(

So.. I was forced to switch to the new version of Blogger.. I'm not happy with that.. I didn't want to switch.. I was fine with the older one, and was not ready for the change.. above all, I don't like to be forced to do something.. yes, this might be a better one, well, I don't know, I didn't check the features.. but still, I should have the right to choose what to do! I don't want to log in with my Google account.. I'm free to do whatever I want!

I'm really angry about that..
posted by MoonLightShadow at 10:11 PM, | 4 comments

The past few weeks..

Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Seems it’s only bad mood that urges me to write in my blog.. It has been sometime, through which I felt like writing, but I just couldn’t find the time.. and whenever I do, I don’t feel like writing..

Came back from Izmir for about three weeks, I know I promised I’ll be writing about the visit and posting some pictures.. but I’m not in the mood for it right now.. but I’ll do sometime..

I’ve been going through a long wave of feeling down.. I go home everyday crying.. feeling suffocated, feeling I’m trapped in an endless loop with no way out.. I’ve had enough.. I can no longer tolerate anything.. I know the coming few months I’ll have double the work load I’m having right now, and I can’t imagine.. don’t know what I’m gonna do.. I’ll never let work interfere with my personal life and consume my time.. However, I know I won’t be able to do anything about it.. this fact is suffocating me.. I know I worry about things before they happen and that’s not a good thing.. I don’t want work to ruin my life.. the worst thing is, I feel I’m ruining my life by myself.. I’m only complaining, and I’m not taking any corrective actions towards these complaints.. I just repeat myself every now and then.. and then surrender to the endless loop..

I had my appraisal today.. it’s my first one ever.. felt a little bit worried about it.. didn’t know how things should go, what is it that I should prepare.. how should I react, what should I say.. kept wondering for a went fine.. nothing more or less than my expectations.. however, still there was the hinting that the coming period will be a tough one, and we have to do our best to get everything done by the deadline..

Well, this hinting annoyed me a lot.. felt like I’m obliged to do things I don’t feel like doing.. and I don’t like this.. but what could I say.. just smiled, but he should have understood what’s behind that smile!!

Been having a lot going through my mind the past weeks.. nothing specific.. but just trying to reconsider how I’m leading my life.. where am I heading.. am I satisfied, and if not, what am I doing about it.. a lot of questions, with no answers..

My diet is not going very well.. went to the doctor yesterday, I discovered that I gained half a kilo instead of loosing.. was very depressed.. started to lose my enthusiasm about it.. but still I'm fighting against myself to complete..

N (an old school friend) called.. I answered because I didn’t know it was her.. if I knew, I wouldn’t have answered.. was not in the mood for receiving any kind of ta2neeb dameer for not calling and asking.. well, there must be a message behind this.. the point is, she never gets the message!

I discovered.. no it’s not that I discovered, but I just paid attention to one fact about myself.. I’m a such a horrible haphazard person.. well, I guess I need a separate post to describe that discovery of mine..

I finally started my daily readings again (thanks to the book fair).. though, I didn’t like the book I’m through these days.. but still I enjoy that hour I managed to extract from myself for reading..

I’m having these days and anti social attitude.. don’t feel like socializing, talking, listening.. may be I feel like talking.. but just talking.. at times I feel like I need to talk talk talk and do nothing else.. don’t know whether I’d seek feed back or not.. but I just feel like wanting to be understood, and helped to help myself (difficult, isn’t it)..

Change, I’ve always wondered whether I’m and pro or anti change.. I wait and anticipate any kind of change to come.. I feel extremely happy for knowing of a any small change that’s happening.. however, I worry, I don’t feel comfortable when I’m outside my place.. may daily routine.. Strange!!

I want to go to Cairo ICT.. don’t imagine I won’t be going this year.. last day is tomorrow, and I’m not sure I’ll be able to make it.. well, I don’t have a specific urge behind going.. but it’s just one of my yearly routine things that I have to do.. not sure what will I do about it..

I'm feeling bad about myself because I'm having a hidden feeling that I'm causing someone pain.. not sure I'm contributing to what he is going through right now, but I feel I am!

Umm.. I kinda emptied some of the things I was having in mind.. I hope that would contribute to lifting up the mood a little bit..

posted by MoonLightShadow at 10:24 PM, | 3 comments