A long tag

Saturday, May 27, 2006
Thanks Nermeena and Nesrina for the tag :) I know I'm late, but it was very long :D

1- Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as your dinner guest? As your close friend? As your lover?
Dinner guest: Bae Yong Jun who played the role of Joon Sang in the Korean TV drama Winter Sonata
Close friend: My current friends
Lover: don’t know

2- Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by five years to become extremely attractive?

3- Would you rather spend a month on vacation with your parents or put in overtime at your current job for four weeks without extra compensation?
Of course a month of vacation.

4- When did you last cry by yourself? In front of another person?
It has been a long time since I last cried, only tears rolling down when watching some movies. Don’t know whether that’s a good sign or not!

5- If 100 people your age were chosen at random, how many do you think you’d find leading a more satisfying life than yours?

6- If you had the choice of one intimate soul mate and no other close friends, or of no such soul mate and many friends and acquaintances, which would you choose?
Multiple Soul mate.. would that be an answer?!

7- Do you think your friends would agree with one another about the kind of person you are?
Don’t think so

8- Would you prefer to be blind or deaf?
If I have to choose, then it’s deaf.

9- How many of your friendships have lasted more than ten years? Which of your current friends do you feel will still be important to you ten years from now?
None lasted for more than ten years.. however, I believe my current friends will still be important to me even more that ten years from now.

10- If you could mould to your liking your memories of any past experience, would you do so?
Don’t understand

11- Would you be content with a marriage of the highest quality in all respects but one it completely lacked sex?

12- If you were happily married, and then met someone you felt was certain to always bring you deeply passionate, intoxicating love, would you leave your spouse? What if you had kids?
No, I won’t.

13- Relative of the population at large? How do you rate your physical attractiveness? Your intelligence? Your personality?
It shouldn’t be me who answer that question.. I can’t judge myself.

14- If you could script the basic plot for the dream you will have tonight, what would the story be?
For a couple of days I’ve been having a work related dreams, including finishing my current project.

15- While out one day, you are surprised to see your father holding hands with someone who is clearly his lover, he begs you not to say anything to your mother. How would you respond? What if your mother later told you that she was going crazy thinking that your father was having an affair yet knew it was just her imagination?

16- If you had to spend the next 2 years inside a small but fully provisioned Antarctic shelter with one other person, whom would you like to have with you?
Someone I love.

17- You become involved romantically but after 6 months realize you need to end the relationship. If you were certain the person would commit suicide if you were to leave and were also certain you could not be happy with the person, what would you do?
LOL.. that’s why I’ll never have a two sided involvement :D
I fear commitment, I fear breaking up, I don’t like hurting people, so, I’ll never allow that to happen at the first place.

18- What was your most enjoyable dream? Your worst nightmare?
I only remember bits and pieces of my dreams..

19- If by sacrificing your life you could contribute so much to the world you would be honored by all nations, would you be willing to do so? If so, would you make the sacrifice knowing that someone you thoroughly disliked would received that honor while you went unrecognized?
No, I won’t.

20- Would you like your spouse to be both smarter and more attractive than you are?
Should be smarter.

21- You discover that your wonderful one-year-old child is, because of a mix-up at the hospital, not yours. Would you want to exchange the child to try and correct the mistake?
If it is possible, yes of course.

22- When did you last sing to yourself? To someone else?
To myself was last Thursday, a song that I kept hearing all the time at work, so I spent all the day humming it.. I don’t sing to someone else, that would be a disaster :D

23- Which sex do you think has it easier in our culture? Have you ever wished you were of the opposite sex?
Males do.
Yeah.. I’ve wished for that a lot.. still wishing for. Though I sometimes get that inner peace between me and myself.

24- What are your most compulsive habits? Do you regularly struggle to break these habits?
Don’t think I have any.. may be one, that I’m struggling to break!

25- Would you enjoy spending a month of solitude in a beautiful natural setting? Food and shelter would be provided but you would not see another person.
Yeah, however it depends on the mood.

26- If you knew you would die of an incurable disease within 3 months, would you allow yourself to be frozen within the week if you knew it would give you a modest chance of being revived in 1,000 years and living a greatly extended life?

27- You are invited to a party that will be attended by many fascinating people you’ve never met. Would you want to go if you had to go by yourself?
Normal cases I’d say No.. though, in very rare cases I’d go.

28- If you were at a friend’s house for thanksgiving dinner and you found a dead cockroach in your salad, what would you do?
Will not eat.

29- If someone you love deeply is brutally murdered and you know the identity of the murderer, who unfortunately is acquitted of the crime. Would you seek revenge?
Wouldn’t kill.. but would make sure he is punished.
posted by MoonLightShadow at 2:09 PM, | 3 comments

As much happiness they bring, still, the hurt is deep!

Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Some years ago, I used to think that crushes, or one sided love was a stupid dumb thing. Then it was someone who changed that idea of mine. He said that as long as the presence of that person in your life makes you happy.. makes life looks better for you, then why bother about anything else?!

I was very much convinced with that. I realized that this actually what happens. Whether the admiration or love is mutual or not, just being around these people made me happy. However, I just realized something today, though their presence makes your life beautiful, but still if they hurt you, the pain is too deep.
posted by MoonLightShadow at 10:38 PM, | 7 comments

The Nokia 3310 rumor!!

Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Haven’t you heard of it yet?! Let me tell you the story..

Yesterday a colleague at work told us that Mobinil are exchanging the Nokia 3310 with a new Nokia 6600 for free. The reason as mentioned was, using 3310 you could start a phone call having your SIM card in the phone, and after you start the call you could remove it and still complete the call without being charged for it!!!!

Felt something strange about it, and thought.. “Just another rumor”.

This morning, found someone calling me saying the rumor is true and she knows of people who already did the exchange but it’s from Raya, not Mobinil. Still wasn’t interested that much. I love my Mobile and I have that kind of a relation with it, plus, the 6600 is full of bugs. But, I was told that if I didn’t do this, I might be facing some legal issues and stuff!!

I thought, and why would I do that to myself. I go exchange it w 7’alas.

Still had that feeling of there is something wrong. But I declined it since I heard that thing from different sources and I heard of people who actually did it.

To be more certain about it, we tired the trick today at work.. and it worked. So, I thought it’s for real!

Today, after work, I went to Raya, full of regrets for giving away my mobile.. was very sad. Went there, and asked “I’ve heard of a certain rumor and I was wondering if it’s right or not?!” and the answer was as I expected “It’s a rumor”.

Great!! I won’t be giving away my mobile then. Thought I should make sure first that nothing is going wrong. Called the person who told me that this actually happened, and she told me that she heard that some other people tried and they were told it’s a rumor. I was like fine, no problem in that. But, she told me to check with Mobinil as well.

It was not a big deal, since there is a Mobinil customer service center near my home. Went in there and asked
Me: I’ve heard of a certain rumor and I was wondering if it’s right or not?!
The guy: you mean the 3310 thing?!
Me: yes
The guy: we’ve heard of it as well but it’s not from here!!
I wondered, then it’s true?!!
The guy: I’m not sure if it’s a rumor or not, but still I’m not responsible for exchanging the mobile.
I thank him and left.

I was happy.. I don’t have to give away my mobile..

Rumors work like magic here in Egypt!
posted by MoonLightShadow at 10:26 PM, | 5 comments

Scattered Thoughts

Friday, May 19, 2006

It has been a while.. don’t have a clear reason why I’ve been away.. may be busy.. or tired.. having an empty head.. or just disappointed from all what’s going around.. in conclusion, was not in the mood for writing. This happens a lot, I find ideas floating in my mind, but I can’t grab them and put them into words..

*Have been feeling tired all day long.. feeling dizzy and sleepy.. went for a quick shopping.. was almost dragging my legs to walk.. don’t like it when I’m feeling that way.

*If you enjoy being with someone.. does it mean that you love the person.. or it could be only that you connect at a certain point?!

*Two things that I hate.. when mum starts pinpointing the fact that I’m gaining weight.. well, yes I am, and I don’t like it, and it’s disappointing me. However, I’m not gonna do anything about it as long as she keeps saying this. Her talk only results in me eating more!

The other thing, when mum starts that talk of; “Where is my good girl?”, “You are no longer my little girl who obeys her parents”, “When you were younger you were a better person” etc…

She keeps going on and on.. and she doesn’t know that this only results in me being more stubborn. I only want to deliver a message of “I have a mind of my own, and I shouldn’t be thinking the same way you are”. They fail to understand this!

*Have always wondered, are we who we want to be, or who our parents wants us to be?!

posted by MoonLightShadow at 9:57 PM, | 6 comments


Friday, May 05, 2006
All I can say is.. I’m a ridiculous immature person who act without thinking!

I really don’t know why I act that way! What is it in my mind that leads me to this?! I wonder!!

Been dying to go.. and I went.. and my hidden agenda was fulfilled.. BUT.. I don’t know.. felt I’m out of place.. felt like a stranger.. a feeling that kills me.. left immediately.. without even saluting the people.. what a silly thing to do!!

I was confused.. didn’t want this to appear.. I preferred leaving than being thought of as a fool.. well, I am!

All the way back.. thinking and rethinking.. should I have stayed, or I shouldn’t?! I guess I shouldn’t have went from the beginning.. but I needed it!!

However, I couldn’t even tolerate our eyes meeting! Yeah, sometimes I fear what my eyes might say..

I’m just confused!
posted by MoonLightShadow at 9:33 PM, | 9 comments

Winter Sonata.. again and again!

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Joon-sang: Do you make a mistake and never repeat it, or do u keep making the mistake, knowing it’s wrong?

Yujin: I don’t get it.

Joon-sang: Let’s say you’ve pledged never to meet someone, but you long to see him, would you stick to your promise, or meet him anyway?

Yujin: I would meet him.

Joon-sang: why?

Yujin: You want to see him, isn’t that reason enough?
posted by MoonLightShadow at 10:58 PM, | 7 comments

The swimming pool and the Sea

When a person learns how to swim.. does he start by swimming in the sea?! It doesn’t go that way. First it starts with a swimming pool with your feet touching the ground.. developing your skills, you can then go a one step further and swim in a pool without having your feet touching the ground.. the next stage is swimming in the diving pool.. a very deep one.. but still limited boundaries..

Now after developing the swimming skills.. it’s time for the sea. Swimming is the same. The same act you do in the swimming pool is the same you do in the sea. However, the surrounding environment is different.

No matter how deep the swimming pool is, it’s still limited, controllable and of minimum risk. On the contrary is the open sea, unlimited, no control, many sources of risk.

Same applies to this life.. a baby starts learning bit by bit.. then he develops his skills gradually. He is taught about different things, at school and university. But still, all within the a limited boundary..

At a certain moment he is dropped in the middle of the open sea, the real life. Things are no longer a simulation of reality.. rather, it’s the reality that he is facing. Seems that he can’t comprehend that.. still dealing with it as if it’s a simulation for reality.
posted by MoonLightShadow at 7:22 PM, | 6 comments

The state of boredom is over

Wednesday, May 03, 2006
It has been a while since I last wrote anything or even went through the blogsphere. Well, I guess I wasn’t suffering from a mute mood as much as I was suffering from boredom.

It took about a week to overcome that state of boredom and depression I was going through. No apparent reason. But I wasn’t feeling good. Lost my interest in many things that used to brighten my day. Didn’t want to go out.. it was a weird mood. Even at work.. kept going in circles.. and having zero progress in my work.

Anyways.. that weird mood is finally over. I’m gradually back to my normal state, or what I wish to be my normal state.

Starting to get myself into new hand craft projects.. I love it when I do this.. I feel I’m doing something that I love.. especially that I have a passion for colors.. anything that contains playing with colors. This reminds me of myself whenever I’m in one of these shops that sell the beads, fabric, canava, etc.. I really feel that I need to buy everything there. Can’t resist it. Even if I don’t have anything that I’ll do with.. But I always like to keep the material at hand, for, whenever something pops in my mind.. I carry it out immediately, and I don’t have to wait till I get the needed stuff..

This also happens when I’m in a stationery.. I can’t resist the colors, the cardboards, pens, note books.. I love it.

I really wonder why can’t I get the idea that I’m already in the open sea?! No more swimming pools?! Why can’t I realize that?!!

More about it later..
posted by MoonLightShadow at 11:43 PM, | 7 comments