MoonLightShadow - A baby figuring her way out

I need to go back on diet again :'( I guess that's the 10th time I say this.. bas 7a3mel eih.. seems I'll live my whole life dreaming of losing those extra kilos..

I'm tired of work.. sometimes I feel I don't wanna go.. simply, I don't feel like working today.. bas lel asaf.. things doesn't work that way..

I'm not enjoying anything anymore.. not even outings, trips, shopping, nothing at all..

I'm going in circles again, and I'm hating it..

Back again into a new crush.. when will I ever stop this?!!!

I need to put an action plan for my life.. days are just running away from my hands..

I need to accept myself as is.. stop trying to be someone else.. just accept me as is..

One of the worst things in this life is to live without having a reason to live for.. without a goal.. without a plan to carry out.. to live same exact days.. with different dates..

I wake up in the morning, not wanting to wake up.. not wanting to go to work, and do the same exact things over and over.. I go to work, and I keep saying I want to go home.. comes time to go home.. I say I want to stay and I don't want to go home.. I go home, sit in front of the T.V. then go to sleep.. comes next morning, same scenario is repeated..

I'm really sick of living such life.. not having a real goal to live for is gonna kill me one day.. I need to have a real goal.. something that I really need to do from deep inside.. not something that I'm obliged to have as a goal..

I'm a person who hates rules, simply because I follow them.. I'm not in a need for any rules.. I need to live a free life.. to do what I really want to do.. without being judged.. without being questioned about everything I do.. I need to live my life according to the person I really am.. not according my family, my environment, my community..

I don't want a single person to interfere.. I need to trust people.. to say whatever comes to my mind at whatever time.. to speak out my real feelings.. I need to feel secured.. I need to break that boredom state..