Me, myself, and I
Thursday, November 24, 2005
A continuous struggle is always there between the three of us. Me, myself and I. A huge difference between the one people see, the one I see myself or looking forward to be, and my inner self.
I don’t know if it’s healthy to have these three diverse characters within myself or not, but I’m trying to decrease the gap between them, or at least working on not increasing it.
Actually I don’t know how others see me, but I’m sure most of them see a picture that is not the true me especially if they are building that impression on appearance or in a short time that doesn’t give them enough time to know the person that lies within.
However, it’s not people’s fault only. It’s my fault as well. I sometimes intend to avoid my inner self, and show a fake one instead. Actually it’s not fake, but she is just a picture. A picture of a typical girl who doesn’t differ much than those around her. She attempts to dress like all people around, think like them, do like they do. In short, she attempts to go with the main stream. Sometimes she is naïve, dumb, quiet, and shy. She is doing all that to save herself the hassle of being recognized, and people knowing how does she think. She did her best to hide her true self from others.
Oooppss.. I made a mistake, I’m describing myself according to what other people see, but I’m not other people. I’m still myself. I’m describing what I see of myself, still from my own perspective. From what I feel I am showing, but still it’s not necessarily how others see me.
So, how do they see me?!! Do they understand that it’s a picture, and if only they dig deeper they’ll reach the core?! Or they get deceived by that outer picture?!
But my inner self is objecting for being hidden all that time. She needs to get out, to be set free, and take the lead of my life. But unfortunately, her attempts to come out and see the light weren’t welcomed. She was rejected, and thought of as a new comer.
I don’t know if it’s healthy to have these three diverse characters within myself or not, but I’m trying to decrease the gap between them, or at least working on not increasing it.
Actually I don’t know how others see me, but I’m sure most of them see a picture that is not the true me especially if they are building that impression on appearance or in a short time that doesn’t give them enough time to know the person that lies within.
However, it’s not people’s fault only. It’s my fault as well. I sometimes intend to avoid my inner self, and show a fake one instead. Actually it’s not fake, but she is just a picture. A picture of a typical girl who doesn’t differ much than those around her. She attempts to dress like all people around, think like them, do like they do. In short, she attempts to go with the main stream. Sometimes she is naïve, dumb, quiet, and shy. She is doing all that to save herself the hassle of being recognized, and people knowing how does she think. She did her best to hide her true self from others.
Oooppss.. I made a mistake, I’m describing myself according to what other people see, but I’m not other people. I’m still myself. I’m describing what I see of myself, still from my own perspective. From what I feel I am showing, but still it’s not necessarily how others see me.
So, how do they see me?!! Do they understand that it’s a picture, and if only they dig deeper they’ll reach the core?! Or they get deceived by that outer picture?!
But my inner self is objecting for being hidden all that time. She needs to get out, to be set free, and take the lead of my life. But unfortunately, her attempts to come out and see the light weren’t welcomed. She was rejected, and thought of as a new comer.
posted by MoonLightShadow at 11:02 PM, | 
2 Comments:
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Get out get out, whomever you are..!!
Get out get out, whomever you are..!!
Some ppl prefer to stay inside their shell and others break thru it and take the risk...but what I believe is no matter how we try to hide , it'll eventually show.